ok so the reason i've not had a post in a while is partly cuz i've been really busy, but more becouse i've been in a fuck load of pain. aprently i have have something called acid reflex, where the acid in my stumech is coming up my asphogus, and that means, beside hurting all the time, when ever i drink or eat it feels like i've been stabed. yeah. it sucks. but now i'm on some pain meds and anti-acids, so i'll be fine(hopefuly) in about a week.
but while this has been going on, i've been thinking about one of my apiffany's from a while back-the idea of mind over matter. the idea that you can ignore pain, and push your self farhter then you should normaly go, by using your mind to block out pain, and wearyness. this idea has help my so much thorugh out my life, like this week with this painfull shit. i ignired the pain, for the most oart, i still couldn't eat or drink, but i could sleep a litle. the best usage of this concept is when your say, hiking.
a few years ago i did this INSANE 28.5 mile hike in upland yosematy, including clods rest and half dome, and all the way down to curry village, in a day. boy, i was not ready phiscly for that. but i kept on going, far past my normal stamina. i'm still amzied that i did it.
the power of the mind is an amazing thing...
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Saturday, June 19, 2010
another day, and yet more bad habbits i need to stop
OK so I've been really bad this summer about eating good and exercising. today i looked at myself just lazing around the house, and i felt disgusted. so starting Monday, I'm going hardcore. very little meat, if at all. running/gym/hiking every day. getting good sleep. and gaaaaa fucking keeping to my regime. That's the hardest part. but i think this week I'll be able to do that.
got my bro Aaron's birthday party this week, still got to get all the money i need. and people keep asking me why I'm getting him such an expense present. here's why: I've known him for almost six years, and for three of them he was my best friend. he's still one of best friends, and I feel like that deserve rs some rearward. good friends are hard to find. then he's the only one out of my whole group to acutely get me something despite that i didn't have a party this year. and Finlay, 16 is a big step for any teen, and should be acknowlged as such.
ga I'm rambling on.
going to get up at 6:45 tomorrow to watch the Italy match tomorrow so i better hit the sack.
got my bro Aaron's birthday party this week, still got to get all the money i need. and people keep asking me why I'm getting him such an expense present. here's why: I've known him for almost six years, and for three of them he was my best friend. he's still one of best friends, and I feel like that deserve rs some rearward. good friends are hard to find. then he's the only one out of my whole group to acutely get me something despite that i didn't have a party this year. and Finlay, 16 is a big step for any teen, and should be acknowlged as such.
ga I'm rambling on.
going to get up at 6:45 tomorrow to watch the Italy match tomorrow so i better hit the sack.
Friday, June 18, 2010
ok so that was weird
lol this week has been great. yesterday particularity. after watching the mexico Vs France world cup game down at civic center with Rachel, we ran all over town, and messed with the obnoxious tourists. after i dropped her off at bart, i chilled at home before i went out with my bro and his buddies, and after using a bong, proceeded to get srsly fucked up. damn i was tripping so hard.
lesson Learned?
bongs.are.great!
lesson Learned?
bongs.are.great!
Thursday, June 17, 2010
whoaaaaa
ttttrrrrrrrpppyyyy
i'm sooo high=D for the firdsssst time!!!!!whoooaoaooaoaooaooa
qweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
omg it's like being in third person...
crazy shit homeyyy
i'm sooo high=D for the firdsssst time!!!!!whoooaoaooaoaooaooa
qweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
omg it's like being in third person...
crazy shit homeyyy
Monday, June 14, 2010
"patterson your mom called, she says your a bum!"
today was pretttyyyy goooddddd. woke up pretty late, had lunch/brekfast, then i realized that i've been eating hella bad all summer, and now i'm like freaking out. lol. took my little sister to amobia, and bought a poster. then i found out that since my sis and mom weren't going to the base ball game tonightso i called up my buds Aaron and will. Aaron couldn't make it, so me and will and my fam+some extend fam saw watch the giants clober the Orioles 10-2.the best part of the game, or funniest i should say is the crowd hecleing the left filder, cory patterson. a old lady who clearly was a died hard had many funny heckles like the title.
GO ITALIA!!!!
GO ITALIA!!!!
Sunday, June 13, 2010
damn, i hope this is just the beginning
today really began yesterday, so I'll start then. i woke up Early to help my mom move stuff out of her school to ma house for the Summer. then at 2 i met up with my gf downtown, and failed at find a movie we wanted to see, we got some drinks and sat outside the back of the faire building, looking over the bay, later we met up with willem, and proceeded to watch him get EXTREMELY messed up, much to our delight and enjoyment. we then proceed to go to the bonfire, and saw many awesome ppl there, like Mimi, Julianna, Ibolya, Chris wong, and many many other=D
after we left me and Rachel(my girl friend), hung out for a bit before i had to walk her to her grand parents house in the haight. from licion. loooong ass walk, and that was because the 71 stops running hella early like 11:30 or some shit. any way. i was to hipper to go home at that point, so after refueling at a 24 hour donut shop, i walked all the way from the haight to the top of twin peaks. and form there i watched the sun rise. it sucked doing it alone, so i've resolved to bring more ppls next time. i tried to do a vlog there but it was too windy and then my camera died.
didn't get home till like 6 in the morning. damn i'm tierd
after we left me and Rachel(my girl friend), hung out for a bit before i had to walk her to her grand parents house in the haight. from licion. loooong ass walk, and that was because the 71 stops running hella early like 11:30 or some shit. any way. i was to hipper to go home at that point, so after refueling at a 24 hour donut shop, i walked all the way from the haight to the top of twin peaks. and form there i watched the sun rise. it sucked doing it alone, so i've resolved to bring more ppls next time. i tried to do a vlog there but it was too windy and then my camera died.
didn't get home till like 6 in the morning. damn i'm tierd
Thursday, June 10, 2010
the moment is pure. enjoy it
live in the moment. don't dewll on the past, for you'll lose track of here. suffering is only possible if you keep thinking about the pain. like a password, remember it when you need it. don't dwell on the future. almost nothing will turn out the way you want it, so don't set your self up for disappointment. instead, enjoy the here, the now, this scened.let go of the monkey-minded-fretting of the past and future. take in everything, the car's going past your building, the people talking in the other room. the sound of your typing. listen to the world, love each moment, for this only go's around once.
i hate being stuck in side/blogs are hard
today sucked pretty hard. i was stuck inside, pratly becouse i had to wait for my supervisor to responed to a phone call, in witch i asked to make a meeting to discuss my hours, and he said he'd call back and he didn't. And partly cuz i seem to unable to concet with the ppl i really want to chill with. but hey, what's new? I mean, yeah, i'm not the coolest/craziest person in the world, a bit annoying atimes, but really is am i that difrent form every one else?
Sorry forum/readers, but being stuck inside during summer dose this to me. And i'm ALWAYS free, and will prob have the drow.
Fuck, i'm ranting. Damn, this blog thing is hard.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
it was a good day.
today was .. ok i guess. i work for my grandma( cuz she pays like 10 bucks an hour witch is really good), had a pych apointmint with one of ma shrinks, and have been chilling and stuff.
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