an interesting metaphor

a friend asked me why I've been writing all of these deep ideas, concepts and the like.
here's my answer.
i use this blog to help formulate some ideas that get stuck in my head.
but also for another reason;
I've been doing alot of thinking, and here's the best way to explain where i am in my life right now: i woulden't all this the morning of my life, rather about the "6am"like time. where every one is starting to wake up, some have gotten up earlier, some won't be getting up till 5 pm, and by then it will be far to late, and some will never wake up. I've been lying in bed since 4, and slowly becoming conscious, and thinking what i am going to do with my day. a few days ago i truly woke up, and currently i'm ling in bed, trying to finalize my day.

mind over matter

ok so the reason i've not had a post in a while is partly cuz i've been really busy, but more becouse i've been in a fuck load of pain. aprently i have have something called acid reflex, where the acid in my stumech is coming up my asphogus, and that means, beside hurting all the time, when ever i drink or eat it feels like i've been stabed. yeah. it sucks. but now i'm on some pain meds and anti-acids, so i'll be fine(hopefuly) in about a week.
but while this has been going on, i've been thinking about one of my apiffany's from a while back-the idea of mind over matter. the idea that you can ignore pain, and push your self farhter then you should normaly go, by using your mind to block out pain, and wearyness. this idea has help my so much thorugh out my life, like this week with this painfull shit. i ignired the pain, for the most oart, i still couldn't eat or drink, but i could sleep a litle. the best usage of this concept is when your say, hiking.
a few years ago i did this INSANE 28.5 mile hike in upland yosematy, including clods rest and half dome, and all the way down to curry village, in a day. boy, i was not ready phiscly for that. but i kept on going, far past my normal stamina. i'm still amzied that i did it.
the power of the mind is an amazing thing...

it was a good day.

today was .. ok i guess. i work for my grandma( cuz she pays like 10 bucks an hour witch is really good), had a pych apointmint with one of ma shrinks, and have been chilling and stuff.