an interesting metaphor

a friend asked me why I've been writing all of these deep ideas, concepts and the like.
here's my answer.
i use this blog to help formulate some ideas that get stuck in my head.
but also for another reason;
I've been doing alot of thinking, and here's the best way to explain where i am in my life right now: i woulden't all this the morning of my life, rather about the "6am"like time. where every one is starting to wake up, some have gotten up earlier, some won't be getting up till 5 pm, and by then it will be far to late, and some will never wake up. I've been lying in bed since 4, and slowly becoming conscious, and thinking what i am going to do with my day. a few days ago i truly woke up, and currently i'm ling in bed, trying to finalize my day.

a day of philosophizeing

today i had a long ass walk. the significance of such walks is that i end up thinking really deeply about the nature of the world we live in
the top aphanies that i had today:
that the arts are like a legend. they start with a simple tail, or story, or concept. and they are the truth. but with each retelling, each verbal recounting, the tale grows, and emphasizes the horrors of the tragedy, the greatness of the actions of heroes, and yet, they too are true

that people are like the stars and planets of the heavens. each one is different. some are balls of bright flaming gas, while other are frozen hell holes, while some are paradise incarnate. each is unique. but if you were to lesson the gap between them, make the hell holes more bearable, but paradise less so it is essayer to bring all of them further up. and their uniqueness will not vanish, but return tenfold with the advance meant of the whole

and yet at the same time, people are like French fries. some are awesome and curly and taste like heaven, some are gurby, mass manufactured and tasteless, while some , like home fries, appear to express the true nature of the fries, almost as to be entirely different. but fires are still fires, no matter what you call them, hide their flavor behind ketchup and other sauces, group them with hamburgers, cover them in yummy animal styleness, they are in the end: just fires, no more, no less

mind over matter

ok so the reason i've not had a post in a while is partly cuz i've been really busy, but more becouse i've been in a fuck load of pain. aprently i have have something called acid reflex, where the acid in my stumech is coming up my asphogus, and that means, beside hurting all the time, when ever i drink or eat it feels like i've been stabed. yeah. it sucks. but now i'm on some pain meds and anti-acids, so i'll be fine(hopefuly) in about a week.
but while this has been going on, i've been thinking about one of my apiffany's from a while back-the idea of mind over matter. the idea that you can ignore pain, and push your self farhter then you should normaly go, by using your mind to block out pain, and wearyness. this idea has help my so much thorugh out my life, like this week with this painfull shit. i ignired the pain, for the most oart, i still couldn't eat or drink, but i could sleep a litle. the best usage of this concept is when your say, hiking.
a few years ago i did this INSANE 28.5 mile hike in upland yosematy, including clods rest and half dome, and all the way down to curry village, in a day. boy, i was not ready phiscly for that. but i kept on going, far past my normal stamina. i'm still amzied that i did it.
the power of the mind is an amazing thing...

the moment is pure. enjoy it

live in the moment. don't dewll on the past, for you'll lose track of here. suffering is only possible if you keep thinking about the pain. like a password, remember it when you need it. don't dwell on the future. almost nothing will turn out the way you want it, so don't set your self up for disappointment. instead, enjoy the here, the now, this scened.let go of the monkey-minded-fretting of the past and future. take in everything, the car's going past your building, the people talking in the other room. the sound of your typing. listen to the world, love each moment, for this only go's around once.